Loser

People are doing business with soul

People are making money out of minds

People are gambling with relationships

If this is what life is, I don't want to live

If this is what death is, I don't want to die

At the end, I can't either live or die

I'm in the middle of everything doing nothing

I don't know this kind of business... I am a LOSER

We lose even when we have faith, hope, responsibleness...

and whatever it makes us deserve to win

because they are of no value in this business

We lose even when we have nothing

because we invest what we don't have

Am I talking about business... If needed, Yes!

We invest the future

And finally lose

Please understand me...

Please understand me,
I am not a small boy,
I know something about the world;

Words from your heart like
'You don't know anything'
'You are good for nothing'
'Mind your business'
Hurts me more than anything;

Please understand me,
After all it's my business...
to take care of you and our family;

Please understand me,
I have solved many others' problems,
I have wiped out others' tears,
I have made others happy,
I have helped the needy;

Please understand me,
I want to make you happy,
I want to make you healthy,
I want to make you comfortable,
I want to make you enjoy the rest of your life;

Please understand me
I want you to discuss things with patience
I want you to look at my eyes
I want you to hear my heart
I want you to read between my lines

Let me try
Let me fail
Let me learn from my mistakes
Let me explore
Let me do things

Please understand me
I always respect you
I always admire at you
I always understand you
I always think about you

Please understand me
All I need is your encouragement
All I need is you kind words
All I need is your smile
All I need is your hug

Where am I?

The moment I saw this pic (while searching for something) I loved it. Immediately I put this pic in my Orkut and changed my name as 'Where am I?' One of my friends scrapped me asking for the meaning of this pic. I could guess why he asked for. I said, "No comments". Couple of days later, I replaced the pic with my own, as I thought it would help promoting my blog.

A week back the same friend came online and chatted. Seeing my blog, he said "It would be better if you don't post any love failure messages in your blog". I asked him that who has failed. Without answering that question he talked about that Orkut pic. He said like, "You always do like this. You never answer my questions. You just confuse. You have changed the Orkut pic when I asked for the meaning". The baseline is he thought that I am expressing love failure through the pic as it is his inference from what he know. I didn't say anything but, "I will post the pic and the meaning in my blog".

The pic reads 'Where is my Love, Where is my Hope, Where is my reason to live'. I feel it more like a statement, than an interrogative. I have stated in an older post 'Reasons', that we always need reasons to live and emotional factors stand up first in keeping us alive. Emotions come out of a relationship. Sometimes emotions may form relationships. So here comes a statement - We are searching out for reasons which in turn lead to relationships and emotions. This is what the pic (or I try to) says.

Coming back to the so called 'love failure'... I don't know where does it come from. There is no need for such a term because 'Love never fails', only people fail. That too people do not fail in love, they fail in understanding love.

Now... if the friend I mentioned in the beginning reads this post, he will say, "You confuse me once again".

(P.S)

There is no market for your sorrows. So never advertise your feelings.

- Charlie Chaplin.

Reasons

We need or search for reasons to do something... what's there for living?... Thought about something odd (or common?) What do I do for my living is a different questions but what are the factors that keep me living/alive? - my breath, heart, lungs, my food, digestive system, immune system etc.... these are all important but as a group, biological factors stand second next only to the emotional factors. I always believe that science or any system at whatever stage cannot beat human emotions in the race.

Human - Homo sapiens - as a species is described as a social animal. (Check out 'Man the social animal') So as a human, as a social animal, I cannot live alone. I depend on some of the fellow humans and mere emotions to keep me running through my life. I would also say emotions are our driving force which comes out of a relationship (whatever it might be)

And now... my driving force comes out of two main groups - my family and friends. I consider only my parents (as I am single yet!) in the family group and few more special people in the friends group. I will talk more about them in the days ahead.